Hey grandma it’s my first birthday without you and I’m not excited about it I miss you so much usually on my birthday I would come over and see you or we would go out and go shopping and have so much fun being with each other and hanging out but I can’t do that this year or any other year I’m like so mad we can’t do that anymore and that I didn’t get to say goodbye to you you got taken like way to soon and it’s not fair you still had a lot more years to live I juts miss you so much and wish you were here at your funeral when they shut that casket I watched them and my heart sank and it felt like the world had stopped spinning I found myself crying not being able to stop and gasping for air I could barely breathe and I never wanna feel that ever again I keep thinking it’s just a very bad dream that I’ll wake up from one day but that’s not happening anytime soon I wish it would though because your the core of our family you kinda kept everyone in tack because at christmas everyone would usually show up and if they were mad at each other it wouldn’t matter while we were there because you made everyone behave but now that your gone I have no idea what’s gonna happen for christmas it’s definitely not gonna be there same and that’s gonna suck I like hate christmas now because that was my favorite holiday with you and now Idk but i love you and miss you so so much.
